I heard someone on tumblr has been talking trash about my ex. I am super confused like shit. I didn’t post anything like mean on my tumblr or twitter when I was upset. I just said I was depressed. Nothing less and nothing more. If someone did write some smack about my ex, could you fess up and tell me? I won’t get upset. I just don’t like the feeling that someone I know might have said some really horrible things about my ex. I still care about him, a lot. And if you did it to defend me or whatever I don’t appreciate you doing it like that. That was mean and that could have gotten really messy really fast. So yeah, I’m done with this post. I’m getting off. 

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dezi-sama:

harmoniasparks replied to your post: Sometimes, I wonder if anyone could actually fall…

Hunny I thought the very same thing. I never found myself good enough for love but someone will see you and accept all your bad traits and love you for who you are. I found someone who loves me, you will find someone. I’m certain.

that person

is lily right

Although Len would say yes, Harmony says not really. I’ve been dating Maakasu for the past 13 months. You’ve seen my posts about him. He is one of the best things that has happened to me. My father is a douche at several times. The times I’m feeling confident, he points at my flaws. The times I want to just be alone he won’t allow me the peace. But you’ll find someone who will treat you like Len would. I will guarantee it. You’ll find someone who will take your hand and say “I don’t care what you call yourself. Cause there is someone in this world who can look you straight in the eyes and say I love you. That someone is me.” Maakasu told me those very words when I was at my worst. He took my face in his hands and wiped the tears from my eyes when I thought of myself in the lowest way I can. He took the person who never believed in love because douchebags in middle school used to make fun of her with the same thing she wanted. Trust me, you’re only 14. I didn’t find Maakasu until the very end of my 15th year and I didn’t notice it until I was 16. Just because you don’t find someone now, don’t believe no one will ever love you. That’s bullshit. You will find someone amazing and you’ll remember what I said and say I was right. So stop worrying about it. Stop looking down at yourself at 14 years old and saying “I’ll never find love” don’t ever look at yourself and say you’re not beautiful. Okay? I hope whenever you’re down you can look at this message from me and have a little more faith and pride in yourself. Please? For me? And the many others who would say the same thing I said to you.

Today was amazing! Happy Birthday to my Love. I’m glad I was able to throw this successful party for him. Everyone seemed to have a great time. And I met my partner in crime :D

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